9.12.2010

Musing... My Tangled Web

Oh what a tangled web we weave,
When first we practise to deceive!
    Sir Walter Scott, Marmion, Canto vi. Stanza 17.
There are times when I find myself lost in thought, and Sir Walter Scott’s words strike me and snap me back into reality.  They are interesting thoughts, though. 
Thoughts of passion, surprise, acceptance, understanding, curiosity, desire, confusion… 

These thoughts swirl around in my brain, tug at my conscience, turn me on, make me smile, and make me choose my words carefully depending on to whom I am speaking. 

… and that is when I feel like Sir Walter Scott’s words ring true the most.  When I am engaged in daily conversations with friends, family, coworkers, or lovers, I must be aware, or else I fear I will become snarled in my own web of deceit.  I choose to keep my double life as a hotwife private, so it is a web of my own creation, and a consequence I must manage.

This consequential web was easy to manage when I met men from Ashley Madison or in a bar.  I had no ties to them, and each encounter was titillating, yet brief.  I could be honest about my reason for meeting them if I desired.  Now, however, I find myself in a different situation.  Well, two situations actually.  Both of which cause me to navigate my web with caution.

I have introduced you to The Doctor, and told about some of my experiences with him.  (Yes, dear readers, there is another secret confession about The Doctor that has yet to be told.)  I must carefully mind my complicated web when I talk with The Doctor.

I have not confessed anything about my most recent lover, the one that has caused me to reflect on my tangled web the most, and the one I have been with repeatedly.  I hesitate assign a moniker for him, for am not sure I can even blog about him.  I will say that the attraction we feel for one another is undeniable... and hot! 
In the months since our paths first crossed my consequential web has become that much more tangled.

9 comments:

Florida Dom said...

You certainly seem to be weaving quite a web. I hope you will keep sharing all the details with us.

FD

Hubman said...

Wait a second, you're withholding hotwife tales from us? I'm disappointed...

But happy to see a blog post from you anyway!

Southern Swinger said...

I knew if I kept checking you would posy again. Welcome back and look forward to sharing in your new adventure

Quiet Man said...

Another confession with the doctor, I can't wait!

AND you've found a special connection with a lover too. That's wonderful. Good for you, and good for him, and good for DH too. Now you realize just how special you are, to have two amazing men in your life, each fulfilling you in their own ways with more than you could ever dream.

I hope you find yourself able to tell us everything, or at least about your feelings.

Take care, you lucky little witch.

Krazy said...

I can wait to hear what ELSE happened with the Doctor. I can see how your web can get really tangled when you know these men IRL. Please go on, we are all ears (eyes?).
=)
XO
K.

bdenied said...

well I agree with Kraz...hope to hear more about the doc and all your other exploits if there are any....

H said...

this blog really got me thinking... I too have spun myself a web... here is too being the spider and not the fly.

great blog

Vixen said...

I'm so intrigued! Can't wait to hear more of your adventures....

EllaGirl said...

Oh Darling, I so relate to this post. It is my reason for taking a break from blogging...so much to say but dare I?! A tangled web indeed! xo - E.